Inward Struggle

I recently enjoyed hearing this song for the first time on Xfactor a week, or so ago.  It affected me very deeply.  Probably in a way that it wasn’t written but I took it inward; an inward struggle that I’ve warred with for years now, not to mention intolerance for being healthy.  A battle so close that I’m still not sure if light will prevail.  I flip-flop so often with my multiple Gemini personalities, my natural white witch vs. my more powerful wicked witch.  My gentle and peaceful eternal soul vs. my darkness that would utterly destroy and come to an abrupt end.  

After slight tears and a few taps on the rewind button, I headed up to my sleeping husband and touched the expression lines on his peaceful face and thanked him for being my General in this battle.  We truly share the most pure and defend against the most evil. Most of the time I wish for a gray that the moon and exes could not sway. Thank you my husband and literal hero, for pushing me to stay strong and for teaching me all that I am worth.  Thank you my Jeremy.

Inward struggle

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I'll be the one, if you want me to.

Anywhere, I would've followed you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I am feeling so small.

It was over my head

I know nothing at all.

I will stumble and fall.

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.

Anywhere, I would've followed you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I will swallow my pride.

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Original Music and Lyrics: “Say Something” by A Great Big World

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