It's been a mystery to me how a man that I didn't love could literally break my heart.  But after the last year and a half of, first my children being stolen, and then a steady barrage of betrayals and loss of loved ones; I realized that I had been broken down so badly by abuse, that I had lost the love of myself.  I worked very hard and very long at being a woman and mother that I finally loved and respected.  My children, my Jeremy, and I will work very hard at putting back the pieces of what should have been to begin with.